Burble blog

Isnt it so strange how a few songs can bring out so much emotion yet a few hours with a psychologist or 2 leaves me feeling like im made of stone. that i dont feel enough sometimes.
maybe this proves im more in my head than out loud. im just dazed now. like whoaa whaaatttt. this seems like its just going to be a burble blog today so maybe il tell you what happened today tomorrow. cos todays not making sence
todays full of tingly words that either stab or stroke. no words just are. everything people say either stab me right in the heart and make me gasp that they can be so unfeeling. or just the opposite and im shocked by kindness. just one of those days i suppose.
everythings got its feeling out and its shape. my minds bending everything to say different things. like looking through a megnifying glass.
and everythings really bright and jumping out at me. its making me want to cry im so trapped here having this fucking dialisis. ive got a hole in my harm. whats the point of that. it just hurts. im just so broken. i can feel it today. i cried this morning and it was that heavy heavy crying that only grief makes. when air is squeezed out of your lungs and theres nothing left exept burning eyes and a sore throat.

Aqualung- a few words from Left Behind

Open the curtain,
Let some light in,
I feel so grey,
The world got smashed to pieces,
And put back together
The wrong way.

Open the window,
Let some air in,
I feel so old
There - Where we were happy,
Long ago
Yesterday

Aqualung- a few words from Broken Bones

Picking up broken words
Snipping the tips off
Grinding down the long ones
That wind around your eardrums

Dangerous plastic words
For crowd dispersal
And dumb dumb words
That could blow your head off

Down by the water and the tide keeps rising
This world is burning and I'm terrified
I need a little more time with you
Oh, I just need a little more time with you
Oh please, just a little more time with you

Aqualung- Black Hole

Sooner or later this will fall apart
It takes more than science to save a failing heart
I wanted to keep you and hide you from the sun
but no one could reach you

You say I'm a black hole
Sigularity
My own supernova
A blazing blind catastrophe
And for once I was a star
A long time before that
Somebody's sun

But enough of these pointless noises
Enough of just counting down
This is not a test
If love is not the answer then maybe I misunderstood
Oh the question
Oh there must be someway out of this

Aqualung- Breaking My Heart

I'm losing faith
I'm losing all faith

You're breaking my heart
Breaking my heart
You're breaking my heart again
Don't ask me to start
Ask me start
Don't ask me to start again
Start again

I wanna fight
Afraid to fight
Why don't i fight
And make you see
I hold my breath
And disappear inside myself

I'm losing strength
I'm losing all strength

Aqualung- If I Fall

Swept away
By the wonder of it all
So amazed
Never saw it coming
Left me dazed
And i don't know where to turn

Here and now
Seems i'm standing on the edge
Looking down
I can clearly see your face
In the crowd
Makes me feel i'm not alone

If i fall
Will you catch me

Seems to me I'm exactly where i dreamt I would be
And the view from here is
Something to see
But i need a hand to hold on to

If i fall
Will you catch me