Soooo

not been on here in ages, again.
had a bit of a shitty weekend and had a bit of a meltdown type thing and didnt see blair for 3 days. started taking my meds a bit more now, so im a bit better. i had dialisis yesterday and my half brother aarons come today to talk to the dr about donating a kidney, but weve got to wait another week for results. sighh.. im so impatient
blairs doing well shes still on cpap though cant quite manage to breathe on her own, she still hates the cpap elastic though. shes 5lb 9oz now so nearly 6lb! what a fatty. i even managed to bath her, im not allowed to bath her properly though, amanda has to hold her and i just hol her head and slosh water all over. but it was nice. and shes in size.... 1 nappies! how exciting.
and iv made a friend called holly.. shes alright, shes having a shit time too so i dont mind her complaining..
ive made beau a new memorial site too as the old one wasnt that good, you can leave candles and stuff on this one :)
http://beaunicole.gonetoosoon.org/