Not a good day

Been rather sicky and horrible. My leg hurts where i have the cath. Im on iv pain mkeds and anti emetics but cant stand the drip i want to rip it out. I shouldnt but i am so so tempted. The little voice inside my head tells me i dont need it, i can get better without it, we know better, im weak but together were stronger and we can work together. Aaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhhhh