ive not been too good posting recenty, iv had quite a lot going on, f has had a chest infection, liars getting to me and freaking me out (hence the swift deletion of blog title, now youll have to ask to see my photos on facebook.. ) just all too freaky for me, just really got to me. scary. so um not much else..

oh yeah, claire is moving to germany, so now paris needs a palce to live, my key worker is speaking to social services to see what im allowed and all that crap.. and ive asked to be moved, iv decided that i hate it here and i dont want to be in crawley anymore. my house is nice, my housemates are nice, but at the end of the day this isnt where i want to live, nothing is making me want to live here, and its time i started lookin out for number one and trying to get what i want in life.

which maybe means social services finding new foster parents for fairy (i know, cruel mummy, not good for her blablabla..) dont worry, i will be considering it seriously and know what it will do to affect her. at the end of the day though, she is 3, i will always always always be there for her, and she will settle eventually wherever she is.

lots to think about anyways.. and i honestly dont know what to do, but this is a time of change for us all right now so it can only be good.. ish..